I commute about an hour and a half to school on Tuesday and Thursday mornings.  Needless to say I can get pretty bored on the 3 hour round trip by myself.  I have started listening to different Podcasts.  I know, its kind of dorky but I really enjoy them. I have heard some great sermons and talks by some outstanding teachers.  Right now I am really enjoying the Mosaic podcasts by Erwin McManus.  He is the author of several books including, The Barbarian Way and Soul Cravings which I really love.  On my commute today, I was listening to several different ones. The podcast “Seek” really hit home for me. It was very basic in content but it was something I really needed to hear.   I have become so busy with my schedule and my own concerns that I don’t seek out the face of God as I should.  As a result I fall back into old patterns and behaviors only to wonder how I ended up in that same old place again.  McManus was talking about his family….how he felt most loved not when he was being loved by his wife, but how He felt loved when he loved his wife and spent time with her.  Odd I know, but I started thinking about that.  Its so true.  I feel closest to God, the most love from God,and the most love towards God when I am earnestly seeking Him and not just relying on the knowledge  in my head that He loves me.  When I seek Him and find Him as He promises, I feel more love and give more love. God has given me this gift of being able to return to school and finish up my degree.  However, I have come to realize that this time is also a time when I have to be still and can learn to listen.  I love the way the Lord uses where we are in life to mold us, grow us, and use us.